Sunday, July 22, 2007
alrite! its the weekends agn! and im really really well rested.. for now...xD
anyways, the past week has made me alittle nostalgic and i cant help thinking back at alot of things - sec sch, poly, frens, r/s - in short, my life in general. and stm i wonder, what if i had studied harder in sec sch, in poly... wld i still be where i am now? working and wondering how and when to take my next step?
what if i hadnt joined the student council in pcs.... wld i still be who i am now? who i learn to respect others and gain ppl's respect? would i be a leader?
the 4 years of my life that i spent in pcs was definately well-spent. i learnt alot - academically, and otherwise. my teachers taught me not just wat i shld noe, but they also prepared me for life outside sec sch.
3 years in the council taught me to be a leader, and a follower. helping out in peicai's SLC yesterday reminded me that u cant be a leader if there werent any followers. and im really glad to say that i havent lost touch with facilitating even though the last time i did it properly was like..... st john's island camp in..... 2004? xD hahahah`
after so many years, i realised that wat i had learnt in peicai, stayed with me. its still in me to lead, to facilitate, and to listen.
sometimes though, it might make me a little egoistic and feel that every1 wanted my opinion. but now i realised, im wrong. ppl who want my opinion, would ask me for it. and sometimes, i talk at the wrong time. but being in a grp of frens who always just pose questions in general and expect any1 to ans it, i guess i failed to recognise tt not every1 is like that. and my ability to adapt and keep quiet was.... lost, in a manner of speaking.
yes, i can still adapt. put me in any situation and im confident tt i can survive. just by how much. but to ask me to keep quiet is really quite a tough thing to do. and im such a stubborn mule stm tt i just keep talking and failed to take in the situation. for tt, im such a failure. but now since i've put it in my heart to really make an
enormous (alrite, im exaggerating, its not tt enormous, but its still a tough choice to make!xD) effort to learn to keep quiet at the right time, i really will be able to do it. i just need to be more conscious and i probably will need more time than usual ppl to overcome it.
now, the lesson i have to learn is to "speak, when spoken to"... coming from such a huge and noisy family, its kinda hard to do tt. lol` but i promise u, i will do it. =))
anyhow, i spent some really great time with my best friend on friday and yesterday. just doing nth but catching up with life and talking over food and a drink. its a really great way to while the evening away x)
on top of tt, i rmb-ed drinking a glass of breezer and getting high! hahah` alrite.. im such a lousy drinker, but i got high cos i drank really fast. hahah` if i had drank slowly, i wld be fine! and the highlight of the nite was tt my darling bestie got really high! hahaa` alrite lah. she dint get really high, just really red and cldnt walk properly. it was damn funny and i think i laughed alot at her. sorry darl!xD ahahah` honestly. i dunno wat i was laughing at. all i rmb-ed was tt i kept laughing and baby kept laughing till my stomach hurts and i still kept laughing. lol`
honestly... i wonder wat goes on when alcohol gets into ur system... -.-
a piece of good news - im confirmed at nyk alr. which means i can now claim offs and leaves!x) but the down side is tt i have to give 1 mth notice b4 i can leave. hmms. lol` anyhow, at least i still have a job!:) and although the politics are really obvious... i guess i can leave with it ;)
afterall, im a survivor!;)
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