Monday, April 17, 2006
blood is thicker than water. that's the old saying.
in the 21st century now? i highly doubt that this saying still holds as much value as it did way back then.
living a life like a puppet controlled by a puppeteer.
things in life are earned. either by hard work, or maybe by other means. but it is after all, still earned. trust. money. results. earned thru hard work. trust. the most basic thing in a relationship. broken easily. but takes maybe an entire lifetime to build.
u dun see wat i do. u nv listen. u only talk. everybody else is wrong; only u are rite. get this. u're the one that is wrong. the one that made the biggest mistake in ur whole life. letting go of sth dear.
i've got great frens. i've got a loving boyfren. what more do i want?i'll tell u. i want him. back with us. nth else is the same until that balance in my life is rite agn.
u can give me everything i want. or u can scold me irregardless of wat i try so hard to do. i need a life of my own. a life not controlled by ur tyranny.
i do not want to live my life regretting the things i did not do. can you for once try to understand us? understand wat we do. what we like. why we behave certain ways. u nv try. u assume u noe. from ur assumptions, u paint a wrong picture of us, of our intentions. i respected u. i loved u. but now...its all different. we're drifting apart. u wanna noe why i always go out. coz i can nv find the peace, love or warmth that i need with u ard. u nv stop scolding. u nv stop shouting.
i studied so hard. to prove u wrong. i tried to prove myself worthy. but it seems like its all in vain. i dunno why im doing this. i want back my balance in life. and only when he's back, then its possible.
scolding. shouting. yelling. that's all u ever do.
Feel the rhythm of the beat ;
11:04 PM
