Friday, July 29, 2005
im seriously speechless now..but i noe i need to let go of some stuffs...my mind's in a whirl..im so lost so confused n utterly incapable of forming my thoughts into words...i need to cry...i wanna go beach..who wanna go with me..=(
sigh...life aint so simple n clear cut..why cant things be simpler so tt heartaches r lesser?why cant ppl think b4 they talk?why do words from some1 u love;be it family or frenz or ur bf/gf;hurt u so much?it hurts so much so tt u wish they cld lessen ur pain by stabbing u directly with a knife n killing u instead of juz slowly torturing u with the words...twisting the knife deeper n deeper into ur heart with every word they say.stm it hurt,it heals..but with every word they say..be it for the same situations or different..the wound cuts deeper..old wounds reopen..new wounds are inflicted..soon..ur heart will be scarred...it will nv be a whole heart agn..n u'll nv be the same person agn...
i nv tot the things u said cld hurt me so much...i realli haf no idea how long i cld take this..im not ur punching bag..dun take me for granted..dun take us for granted..we're not here for u to punch n scold..pls respect me n my decisions...im so lost now coz i nv tot i wld care wat u said..but deep down..i do..i really care..coz u're my dad....=(
Feel the rhythm of the beat ;
9:17 PM
